I'm early in the audiobook, but I'm beginning to get a sense that Perry is going to fill this book with a bunch of self-diagnosed pop psychology. "Not having a parent on that flight is one of many things that led to a lifelong feeling of abandonment." " if I drop my game, my Chandler, and show you who I really am you might notice me. but worse you might notice me and leave me, and I can't have that. I won't survive that... so I will leave you first." I heard this kind of BS all over alcoholism recovery spaces and it's usually bullshit. it's meant to make one's brokenness a sympathetic kind, rather than an asshole kind.